I’m going to start off by saying that 2017 was a horrible year for me in terms of my professional and personal life (so my entire life? I don’t know). Now that that’s out of the way, I can talk about what’s been bothering my recently.
For the past 6 months, I’ve been struggling with what I should be doing with my life. Should I have a nice job and use my degree? Should I wait for the right opportunity to pop up? Or should I get off my ass and make an opportunity appear? BUT I’ve stayed in the same job I’ve had since I was a sophomore in college. And now this thought haunts me constantly:
“Maybe this is all I’m good at”
And then I start thinking about how stagnant I’ve become; how complacent I’ve become in life. Then I start to panic, but nothing ever materializes from it. I don’t look for jobs, I don’t apply for different positions at my current job, I don’t try to learn new skills, the list goes on.
Anyways, I thought I should type this to organize my mind somewhat and I can finally move past this in my own unhealthy way.